You know one of those days that you can only describe as “aaaaaaaarrrgggggghhhhhhh” ?
It’s one of those days.
Without talking about why I’m feeling blah, I’m going to try and describe why I’m feeling blah.
Yes, I know. Logic has taken a serious hit today. Look at my Spock bobblehead on my desk.
“It’s only logical.” What is? That I would feel a little angry and a little frustrated at being right? Yes.
What am I right about?
Let’s talk about it in terms of milk.
I’ve always held on to skim milk. It’s comfortable, I’m used to the taste, and it always makes sense to me. Everyone says I need to try 1%, 2% or even 3%, but I’ve got my own share of problems and opinions. Whenever I’ve ventured outside of my comfort zone and tried 1% or 2% milk, it’s hit me bad. It leaves a horrible taste in my mouth, I always remember trying other kinds of milk as a horrible experience, and it makes me want to stick to skim milk.
I tried to give em a chance, but they’ve always disappointed me, so I go back to skim milk. Because it’s safe. Because I can depend on it. 1% and 2% are unreliable.
I can’t adopt a new philosophy on dairy because I don’t have the time, can’t be bothered, and don’t want to disrupt my life.
My life has to be about me, and if I change the variable of skim milk, everything can potentially change.
And I don’t want it to. I need to focus on my life right now and I don’t have room for change.
Recently, someone asked me to consider the possibility of 1% milk. Try it for a week, they said.
Once again, I was proven right. Skim milk is the way to go.
Because 1% left a horrible taste in my mouth. This was the 5th or 6th time that I’d tried it, and I knew it would leave a bad taste in my mouth, so I was prepared for it.
But I was still 1% disappointed.
Alright, just 1%. is that warranted?
No. It’s not worth it.
So does my day have to be ‘aaaarrrrgggggghhhhh’?
Is it ok to feel that way?
Even if it is 1%?
But you know what, I was stronger after the first time, the second , third and fourth time, and now I’m even stronger. I know what to do, I know it’ll get better with time, and as I’m typing this out, I actually feel better that I learned that once again, skim milk is the way to go. I feel better that I learned something, and more importantly, I feel stronger after today.
I actually feel excited and proud of myself because now I know exactly what to do so the 1% goes down to 0.
I actually feel happy, as I’m writing this, because this made me stronger- even if it is in a very little way. If I hadn’t been proven right all this time, I wouldn’t have been able to handle the 7th time I tried 1% milk.
Now that I did, I won’t be as affected as I have all those other times.
And the next time I do, I won’t feel even 1% horrible.
And I can always rely on skim milk.
Just this one time, just this one time, I’m going to insert a generic, cheesy picture here.
Because I feel like it.
Because I’ve got my skim milk and I feel stronger.
I’m still scared of other kinds of milk, but I won’t be as scared the next time.
Because I choose to be stronger. And happy.